"Ignosce mihi, Pater, quia peccavi."
Between my grilled asparagus and steamed broccoli for lunch and my rigorous work out at the gym after work I had this unnatural desire, and stupidly acted upon it to shove handfuls of toffee covered peanuts in my mouth. Why? Why? Why? My body is craving sugar, and I have been good with satiating it with fruit, but I fell back today, shamefully.
Lunch was with clients down in TriBeCa at Market Table. A quaint place and the food looked great. I say looked because there was not much I could do with the menu except get sides. So, I had the small salad with blood oranges and sides of grilled asparagus and broccoli. Both quite good.
Not an hour later I was craving something sweet, and because there is not a fruit stand at the ready in the middle of a snow/rain storm in Times Square I chose the weak path and grabbed a tin of toffee covered peanuts. Of course they advertise 0% Trans Fats, but it is sugar coated peanuts. What was I thinking? I threw away the half eaten (2/3 actually) tin in an effort to stop myself.
The gym work out was intense and I was happy that I was down 43 lbs on the scale, but in the end, it was a poor day.
6 comments:
No one is perfect. At least you threw away the unfinished tin. That probably wouldn't have happened a few months ago. Tomorrow is another day.
Congratulations on the two additional pounds lost!
Alicia
I love the flourish with which you started this post.
Self-flagellation MAY have helped Pope John Paul II get closer to Jesus, but experience tells me it doesn't help us get closer to our weight/health goals. Self-hatred usually, for me at least, leads to a weakening of my will, rather than a strengthening.
(But your vegan quest can provide some empirical evidence! To wit: How will you fare tomorrow?)
All of which is to say that, while a little humility does indeed go a long way, I hope that your humility will be leavened with compassion for yourself, the one who craved something sweet in the middle of a bad storm.
Onward! (and thank you)
ps: appreciate you showing more of the struggle!
oh, and how is your stomach feeling?
"two Big steps back"? Little slip, my friend, just a little slip. Congrats on the journey and keep it up!
I can't be too easy on myself. You let it slip once, then twice, and then the next thing you know, you have the Reformation on your hands!
The ship has been righted, today is indeed another day and as I happily type this I have a bowl of fruit and my trusted oatmeal at the ready.
It's very hard when you don't have anything on you to satisfy an urge like that. How about starting to carry a bit of dried fruit in your pockets for times such as this. A few dates or dried figs can help a lot and although it's not ideal to eat much of it, it's better than most other things that you buy on a whim. Great going so far though, well done on the weight loss.
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